It's me, Ania. I'm still in France. Still in Belgentier, still with Helena and Olivier. Happier!!!
It's been a long time since I was here last time and not because time in Belgentier has been uneventful. Oh, no, no, no! It's been a very eventful, roller-coaster like time. A long adjustment to a new life, a turbulent time when I had to learn how to live in a new country, operate in a new language and live in a drastically new way. I'm still learning and still adjusting - I start to believe that because of my age, it takes more time get used to things.
Though all of this seemed many times impossible and I swear more than once I wanted to pack my suitcase and go, I stayed. We stayed. I'm sure that Olivier's had also moments when he wanted me to pack my bags and close the door on the other side as I'm not the easiest person to live with. But we've stayed and I'm grateful for that. Many challenges are still ahead of us but the more I'm here, the more I believe that we can make it into a story with a happy ending. I've learnt that so much depends on me and my attitude and that the other person cannot possibly do everything for me. At 35 it's high time I learnt that. For a quite a long time my attitude was quite rotten, I must say. I am learning from Olivier each day new attitudes towards life, business and relationship and though these lessons are hard and unpleasant at times, they open my eyes and give me lots of food for thought. After all, maybe my way is not always the best.